Saturday, April 28, 2012

If.

if I die young
bury me in satin
lay me down
on a bed of roses
sink me in the river
at dawn
send me away with the words of a love song
Lord make me rainbow
I'll shine down on my mother
she'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors
oh and life ain't always what you think it ought to be.. no
ain't even gray, but she buries her baby
the sharp knife
of a short life
well I've had
just enough time
and I'll be wearing white
when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little cold finger
I've never known the loving of a man
but it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand
there's a boy here in town
says he'll love me forever
who would have thought forever could be severed by
the sharp knife of a short life.. well
I've had
just enough time
so put on your best, boys
and I'll wear my pearls
what I never did is done
a penny for my thoughts.. oh no
I'd sell them for a dollar
they're worth so much more after I'm a goner
and maybe then you'll hear the words I've been singing
funny when you're dead how people start listening....
the ballad of a dove
go with peace and love
gather up your tears
keep'em in your pocket
save them for a time when you're really gonna need them

I've always went to MetroLyrics for well.... song lyrics,
and I've only recently realised that they've implemented a system for members to explain what certain lyrics meant; what they refer to as song notes.

I think they're really interesting reads.
Like how a part of the song is a reference to Tennyson's The Lady of Shalott.

Then it touched me when this part of the song was depicted as the character's desire to "bring comfort to her grieving mother through the sign of nature in the form of a rainbow".

Next the part "I'm as green as the ring on my little cold finger" and "I've never known the loving of a man
but it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand" were explained separately, the first as a reference to a "metal ring leaving a mark on her finger, or a re-iteration of her youth through the color green", and the latter as she died young as a virgin, but it was still nice to know the affection of a man when he holds her hand.

For this I had different thoughts.. what if you read that particular verse as a whole?

The verse was started with "and I'll be wearing white when I come into your kingdom".. I think that's a reference to when she goes to heaven, she'll be pure as white; she's all new to it, and she has never known the loving of perhaps, the Lord, but it felt good when He guided her. Then she switches back to when she alive - she didn't refer to the love of a man.. she referred to him as a boy. A boy who'd love her forever, but the promise of forever was severed by her early death.

..and I really like how the song uses the word severed.
When you die, access to you is forever gone. Severed, severed by the sharp knife of a short life. Lethally genious. I felt remorse as I listened to that particular part.

Life's irony is also in this song. Something so true. It's so true that people only pay attention to you when you're dead. Like how certain artist's works are only appreciated after their death. Perhaps it works like the phrase "..because it didn't happen in this life", but the idea that the legacy lives on in this death is better than nothing happened at all, I guess.

Finally, gather up your tears, keep'em in your pocket, save them for a time when you're really gonna need them. :)

I remember all the times I said I don't want you to cry in my funeral (if there's gonna be one). I can't say I've lived my life to the fullest yet. But my biggest regret in life would be the idea that I made you cry after I've passed. I won't be able to comfort you, ya know? That irks me.

Haha.
..and as I listened to this today, I thought of Bersih 3.0.
Death happened. Would they finally listen? 
Do you know what death is? Do you appreciate life?
I'd let you know that those who appreciate people's life has the greatest power of all.
The power of love and compassion... that would one day override the power of authority, that would one day nullify all your powers.
Please change.
Please, no more deaths for this matter.
Not all mothers can take burying their babies,
and not everyone are strong enough to be a rainbow.
Not everyone has the luxury of having enough time, especially those who die young.

It's truly ironic how life is only appreciated after death.

*ahem*

Now, I want my life eulogies ;p
Ah, the paradox. (:
..and I'm just kidding.

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