Because of love

presenting to you a CD from the past

listen to the love we had back then

because sometimes I'd forget

that I still do love you

unable to sing such a song again

listening to it makes me shy away

even though I'd often forget

that I'm still in love with you

because of love, there is resilience

therefore everything seemingly has a happy appearance

because of love, there is growth

but even so, I could still go crazy for you at any time

because of love, how can there be sorrow

therefore we are still what we are back then

because of love, that place

will always have hearts

wandering around

Pawn

I want to walk out of the territories you control
but I stepped into the war you planned
I have no tight defenses
and I have nowhere to run
I want to escape from the traps you set
but I dropped into another problem
I don't have the strength to grasp victory
and I have no luck to flee
I'm just like a pawn
every move I make is under your control
I'm not the only one in your eyes
but just a pawn
I'm just like a pawn
every move I make is out of my control
there is never hesitation in your decisions
and yet still I am
under your control

tonight I scribbled on my laptop with Bing's pen.

and then realized it's permanent ink.

so i scribbled more.

it's irreversible.

just like time,

and the things said.

it's both good and bad.

but before it's known, it's always scary.

the truth hurts.

and hello.

you have things to lose.

and after that you either feel a whole lot better,

or a whole lot worst.

I don't know.

I don't know anymore.

I am.

so scared.