Stripped Thoroughly

when it broke, you regretted and turned back
so that there will be nothing more in the future
when I worked, slept, prayed, enjoyed so purposefully to continue every day
just by seeing that things had loosen up you were willing to meet up again
the one who wanted to run away from all these
and the one driven to the end of the world
only when breathing was hard did I realized that I had turned into a puppet
the one controlling all, who was it?
I paced back and forth, just waiting for you to be taken
the silk at that moment will not be measured for the rest of my life
but I dragged my shell along
and realized that my journey for happiness was still on your shoulders
or was the string up for me to cut
so that the broken kite would finally fly up to heaven
these years as I watched you clutch to the fact that he would appear
what reason do I have to continue being entangled with you
let me find a soulmate, find a place that I may leave your footprint to move on
it was the back you turned that drove me to step forward
if a strand of silk may guide me in my lost path
that strand of silk felt like it was in my throat, like it was itching
and to ensure that you feel secure I continued smiling, although I wanted very hard to spit it out
I just hope that you'll find a good partner, and I will heal
I never realized that the one holding me back will not fulfill the promise
my mind, filled with strands of silk, thought so much till it turned white but was reluctant to fall
feelings controlled by you, which one of us would be willing to fly, entangled towards paradise
and then my shell had broken, as it realizes that desires were difficult to eliminate because we are reluctant to give them up
is it because love by default is as such that it holds someone back

even if both you and I had once held hands, the rope tying us together has disappeared