unforgettable

What is?

To me my memories started to have a good recorder only when I was 15.

15 was when I was aloof, callous.
15 was when I know I found a clique.
15 was when I have a clique protecting me.

They brought change. I felt happier.

16 was when I had to enter a new clique.
Otherwise, for almost the whole of 16, I've been sleeping.

Slept till 17.
17 I got comfortable with my new clique.
17 I was so excited, I wouldn't let go of the Genting trip.

I changed a little when I was 17.

18 I had to enter a new clique again.
Even so, it was exciting.
Getting to meet up with my primary school friends.
Actually, just one I was excited to meet :P
End of 18, I got so comfortable with my new clique.. and it had already ended.
18 told me I need to adapt faster (although I didn't improve).
Many things happened when I was 18 though.
Some things I wished I had grabbed the chances, because some chances don't come back.
Learnt things in 18.
Learnt to be understanding.
Learnt to be a listener.
Learnt how to play pool (:
Learnt how to be tolerant and patient.

Not just change, I think improvements existed in 18.

19.. a new clique yet again. I remember thinking I hate this.
19 I realized I was dependent.
19 I realized it's true. You'd want to follow your friends.
19 I didn't realize I had to grow up.
19 I regretted a lot of things.
But one thing good about 19.
19 I met, I would say.. an awesome bunch of friends.

..and together we stepped into 20.
20 a new friend entered the clique.
20 was pretty much like 19.
20, but regrets from 19 carried over.
20, slowly realize I have to be independent, because my clique isn't going to be there because I have ignorantly, and stupidly slowed down my own pace.
20, I have to be responsible for my regrets.
20, both happy and unhappy.

Most importantly, 20, I think I really grew up.
If it's only a thought, I know I have to grow up.
Didn't exactly did much about knowing I have to grow up,
but here I am, 21.

First day I'm 21, it was unforgettable.
21, and trying to grow up.
21, hoping that I will grow up.
21, still having regrets from 19.
21.. having no idea whether there'll be 22, 23, 24 and so on.

But 21, trying to live everyday productively.
21, trying my best to not make anyone sad.
21, still making people sad.
21, still lazy.
21, still loves Andy Lau.
21, still plays Pokemon.
21, still trying my best, to do my best.
21, still sensitive.
21, still immature.
21, still MouseHunting.
21, still worrying people.
21, still appreciating the happy moments, however minor.
21, ..a lot of things I have to improve on..
including..

21, still loving you.