Interesting...

..what plays on my DVD player, will not play on my DVD-ROM, and what plays on my DVD-ROM will not play on my DVD player. Oh, the irony.

I just want to finish an episode, brush my teeth, and go to bed without crapping here in my blog.

I could really use a wish right now.

Maybe I should record today yesterday down.

Had lunch with my group of high school friends :)

So we had two couples there and..
apparently the girls are the men, and the guys are the women.

Another irony.
So I said 'Maybe I should find myself a lady too'.

San: Yes please do find yourself a lady!
Me: Ok :)
San: I mean, please find yourself a boyfriend, please don't find yourself a real lady.
Me: ...
San: Seriously, please don't find yourself a lady.

.......................................................

Now it's tempting to be a lesbian.

I could do with the reactions of my friends thinking "Why, Yin Mei, WHY!?".
Amusing... and it's not like I don't have the base of a lesbian already, having seen several similar reactions that has once affected me greatly.

But I suppose it wouldn't be valid since I have said that all in this public blog, coupled with the fact that I might put this post up on Facebook.

Anyway: Resolution Jan 2011:

1. Stop talking with Sheldon aftertaste.
2. Don't buy food in uni. Heck, don't buy anything for this month.

Next!

A comment.
Nico, I don't know if it's the connection, but I hope it's not so that I can say:
you are a lousy conversation keeper. I need social interaction!

Next!

I like how I have less hair to wash now... although Bing says that I now look like a boy. Hmm.. maybe that's what prompted San's comment.

Next!

I am not crapping, you know.

Next!

Starting Tuesday, I have to keep a log on my food intake. Interesting, but hassling. Hassling but interesting.

Next!

I'll end this post with a song I think that should be posted at least once in each of my blogs. I really love this song. It's emo. Haha, or I'll just say.. I relate with the song. I haven't listened to this song in a while, because sometimes it makes me think about how it reminds me of things, but tonight.. tonight I just want to blog about it.

nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
and if I ever need someone to come along
who's gonna comfort me
and keep me strong
we are all rowing the boat of fate
the waves keep on coming and we can't escape
but if we ever get lost on our way
the waves will guide you through another day
遠くで息をしてる　透明になったみたい far away, I breathe, as if I was transparent
暗闇に思えたけど　目隠しされてただけ it seemed that I am in the dark, but I was only blindfolded
祈りをささげて　新しい日を待つ I offer a prayer, awaiting a new day
鮮やかに　光る海　その果てまで when sunlight would shine vividly upon the ends of the ocean
nobody knows who I really am
maybe they just don't give a damn
but if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me,
and keep me strong
人の心はうつりゆく　抜け出したくなる people's heart change, and I want to slip out
つきはまた新しい周期で　舟を連れてく and the moon, in its new cycle, will once again guide the boats of fate
and every time I see your face
the oceans heave up to my heart
you make me wanna strain at the oars
and soon I can see the shore
when will I see the shore
I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'll feel this way towards you
and if you ever need someone to come along
I will follow you
and keep you strong
旅はまだ続いてく　穏やかな日も the journey will continue, even during calm days
つきはまた新しい周期で　舟を照らし出す and the moon, in its new cycle, will once again shine upon the boats of fate
祈りをささげて　新しい日を待つ I give my prayers, awaiting a new day
鮮やかに　光る海　その果てまで when sunlight would shine vividly upon the ends of the ocean
運命の船を漕ぎ　波は次から次へと私たちを襲うけど we are rowing boats of fate, and the waves will continuously attack us
それも素敵な旅ね　どれも素敵な旅ね but it's also a wonderful journey; they are all wonderful journeys

Paper disproves Spock

1. It's 1.07am in the morning, and I'm having cravings for Euro Deli's sausages.. great. Just great.

2. I like Sam Tsui's singing. A little.

3. Somehow, I aspire to be able to remember the rules of Rock-Paper-Scissors-Lizard-Spock. Weird aspiration, I know.

4. Goodbye Happiness :)

5. Yesterday, I went to bed at 12.30am. So I figured a little bit of reading will do good in lulling me to sleep, you know, make my eyelids drop and I can go straight to sleep.

I ended up reading until 3 in the morning.

6. I am seriously considering going to Pavilion myself on the 19th to finally for once, try to take a look at my idol. For once, I am hoping that I can see him so that I can acknowledge his existence, that he is real.

..and then I will reward myself by eating a Snowflake Bestseller :P

7. I am craving for karaoke.

8. Oh right! Today Yesterday, Mel finally gave me the Christmas present she was talking about. It was a... pencilbox multi-purpose pouch! :D A cute one at it too! Still figuring out what stuff I can put into it.. anyways, I love it! It's so cute! Thanks Mel!! :D

9. Tofu bought me chocolate!! ..and a shirt. Bread shirt, and it was washed.. and she ironed it.. and she asked me to wash it again. I love ♥ XDD

10. Haha, and if it wasn't enough to get quite a number of stuff in a single day, Hu Yi bought me a packet of Korean chips! Yummy. HAHA. Thanks girl ;)

11. Crazy Old Fish War!! Hehe!

12. ..and I really love Andy Lau's theme song for Shaolin. The lyrics, the song, everything of it, still makes me feel touched, my nose itchy. Makes me feel like reciting the sutra too. Makes me reminisce how when I was young, I could recite all 108 verses of the Compassion Mantra (if I did not remember wrongly)..

can't wait to watch the movie!! :)

\\.//

1.Credits to Mel for introducing me to The Big Bang Theory.. :D

2. It's cute how.. I have observations upon the two continuums... and maybe I would slowly realize something :)

3. Wow, I just realized that my sister's birthday this year.. the date is cute. 20.11.2011 XD

4. Upon me are 139 people playing like crazy, and being the 140th, I'm just lazy.

5. 我辦不到 你辦不到 乾脆不要 乾脆就拉拉拉拉 倒 ;)

6. I finished my shopping today! :D

7. Green, red and purple. Less white and yellow. What do you get?

Wow..

In less than a week, it's 2011.
Somehow it feels like 2010 flew through.
It feels like everything just happened yesterday.
Just yesterday,
I was in uni, waiting to attend PSY106 in the comp lab, smiled, and deactivated my Facebook account (and then shit happened).
Just yesterday,
Karie and Mel were in my house playing after they did a silly inventory of which they had to go to uni for on Saturday. They played, as I napped a little. They played, and we laughed tons as Mel pushed away Karie's huge ball away to prevent her from winning. They played, and Mel exclaimed that Winnee was laughing at them.
Just yesterday,
Mel, Sarah, Joyce and Zhen came over to my house, and we had a lot of fun ;) It was the beginning of the Monopoly Deal hype too!! :)
Just yesterday,
it was Karie's Soft Toy Birthday Party ;)
Just yesterday,
it was all about us surprising and celebrating Sarah's birthday :)
Just yesterday,
it was Chinese New Year, and we had dinner in New Paris.
Just yesterday,
Yi Zhen texted me so spontaneously that she wants to do her hair, and it had to be the next day! Haha, fun ;)
Just yesterday,
tofu and I met up together to watch Eat,Pray,Love :)
Just yesterday,
we hanged out in 1U, and did practically nothing much except walking and talking, window-shopping and talking, sitting down and talking, eating and talking.
Just yesterday,
she came over to have a sleepover in my house for the first time.
Just yesterday,
we all went for CHC's first Easter production, but couldn't get in, so we left and had ice cream in McD's instead. After that, I attended that production, twice.
Just yesterday,
I went with my siblings to karaoke, and we sang our hearts out.
Just yesterday,
I went for CHC's Christmas production, played Tap Tap, visited tofu, and went for karaoke :)
Just yesterday,
we were in Winnee's office, chattering and laughing away. I didn't talk much, but it sure was nice to hang out with an admirable yet intimidating lecturer! :)
Just yesterday,
was ARUPS. We worked ourselves out.. and I realize tons of people were ultimately stressed and extremely tired. But I found it a great experience... or maybe I'm just easily happified.
Just yesterday,
it was before we went to Rayner's party. Had a nice little chat with Moon and Nico :)
Just yesterday,
Sniffy brought me a Grande Peppermint Mocha Frapuccino (+3 shots).
Just yesterday,
I gave him Croco and saw his wtf face.
Just yesterday,
Li Hui, San, Yi Peng, Nico - we were all in Kiliney Kopitiam. Just talking :)
Just yesterday,
I went to Japan.
Just yesterday,
I was having fun watching my nephew Rui Rui pose for me in front of the camera.
Just yesterday,
we celebrated Meng's birthday in Italiannies.
Just yesterday,
I realized Weng Khye is really a nice guy after I got all irritated (and perhaps to him, it was the first time he saw me getting so annoyed) and so he suggested to go for karaoke anyway. Most likely I wasn't the only factor - it was after exams, and he hadn't went for karaoke for a long time too it seems. But still, very nice of that little kid! It's good because nice people are running low in this world :D and somehow I was happy to have showed that I was annoyed since.. ah haa, generally the day turned out well :)
Just yesterday,
we were doing our Forensics project.
Just yesterday,
I was in Bubba Gump, celebrating my 21st birthday.
Just yesterday,
we were laughing on about something during break.
Just yesterday,
tofu came and spent the night, then went for my Cognitive class.
Just yesterday,
we studied in Taylors Lakeside Campus.
Just yesterday,
I was out with Michelle, Maple and friends to yumcha.
Just yesterday,
it was bloody prom.. and after that we went for karaoke.
Just yesterday,
I went for a trip to Malacca with Mel, Meng, Jen, Jie Xin and Chew Wei. We ate tons, laughed tons, enjoyed tons, and had tons of good memories :)
Just yesterday,
I was in Yi Zhen's uncle house with Mel, playing truth or dare.
Just yesterday,
I showed Yi Zhen a thank you video and she laughed. Later, she showed it to her sister, and Yi Lin chased her into the room.
Just yesterday,
I was sad.
Just yesterday,
I was happy.
Just yesterday,
I regretted.
Just yesterday,
I learnt from my mistakes.
Just yesterday,
I learnt that I won't make wrong decisions, as long as I don't act.. or speak when I am angry.
Just yesterday,
it was Christmas. :)

But with memories like these.. 2010 has been a fruitful year, and I'm sure I hadn't listed everything down yet. Every single day of 2010 has been like Christmas. Every day I am gifted with a memory to keep, or otherwise, a day to live. ;)

Have a good year ahead, you! =)

Welp..

Maybe I should blog about prom.
It was quite a day.
I starved until ... they allowed us to eat.
I didn't intentionally not eat.. just that I was supposed to be on vegetarian,
it was raining cats and dogs,
cars were everywhere,
and by the time it was 3..
I gave up on lunch and went to the saloon instead.
My hairstylists are interesting people.
They said that "你十句話 得那三句可以信下"
Oh come on... all the compliments I tell them are from my heart alright!
ANYWAY.
So yeah.. they made my hair all.. erm..
curly?
wavy?
Whatever.
Then they put a currypuff in the middle.
Uh hum. Then I'm all set!
Went home and managed to wash up a little (otherwise I'll feel SUPER uneasy).
I guess, it was kinda lucky that some forgettery bought me some time ;)
Next, one thing.. about makeup.
1. My mom only has lipstick.
2. Who's gonna help me makeup?
So.. I don't care la =D
..when Kar arrived she made sure I put some up anyway. Tee hee thanks Kar! And Wei Wei! :D
I guess my lips did look nicer after putting some of the lip gloss! HAHA. Can mwah nicely. xD
Food was.. ... seriously.. a letdown in terms of hotel food. My granny can cook better than them!
But it was alright. Edible.
I guess even if the point of prom was to dress up and dance..
I think the best part was.. we spent time together =D
Love the afterparty most ;)
Tee hee hee.
Had so much fun in karaoke at the wee hours in the morning!
It's a whole, brand new experience! XD
(and the attendant there is SO CUTE! XD)
..although I suppose we were all already pretty tired.
I hope everyone had fun though +D
..and I feel awesome changing back into my usual wear after the hours of wearing that.. black.. item.
Like Meng said: "THAT'S THE YIN MEI WE KNOW!"
HAHAHA.
Love love love! :)

Hmm, where do I start?
Sunday has been a fruitful day :D
First I woke up earlier than 8.
When I wake up THAT early,
it means it's gonna be a long day... and it is!
...because see,
it's currently 1.29am and I'm still not sleeping (I'll explain why later.. if I remember to).
So woke up .. and went off to church o_O
Pins and Needles was great ;)
and.. 陳威全!!! :D
He has a freaking nice voice. I like!
He looks pretty alright too XD
coughyizhenwantstomarryhimcough
Other than the fact that I had to withhold about one litre of water in my body for about.. I don't know, half to one hour?
The event was awesome =)
(oh, and other than the fact that I sampatly bought the same... ........... I should actually remove this line because I no longer wanna continue the sentence. But... let this be a lesson ^_^)
After that went off to Tropicana City Mall to see TOFU! :DDD
Tofu was happy to see Kalor cappie and ... Kalor. :D YAY.
Couldn't stay long though. Sigh.
Had lunch at Food&Tea Restaurant (I think that's the name) with Yi Zhen & co.
Then went for a KTV session at Sunway Giza.
HAHA. I managed to finish rapping Eminem's feat. Rihanna's Love The Way You Lie! OMG must be adrenaline rush.
In between played with Sun Mei's cousin Alethia. :D
TAP TAP FTW! Have I ever mentioned that one of the reasons I want an iPod Touch is because of TAP TAP!?!?!?! :D
..and finally, it's time for home.
Damn freaking tired.
But see, I'm still here.
Had the usual dinner.
Went through a pre-torturing prom-clothes wearing session.
Ah, and before dinner, I listened to Andy Lau's Unforgettable album :D
I. Love. Andy Lau!!!! :D
Hmm, and after the session till now,
I've been online chatting, and CityVille-ing!
..and yes, that's why I'm still up... because I am CityVille-ing!
Come be my neighbor! ;)
Overall, this very Sunday makes me feel like it's a good closure to 2010 =)
I love all of you in my life now alright..
..and love never lasts,
but I hope my love, your love, our love will last for as long as it can.
Alrighty, that's all, excuse the wall of text. Good night! :))))

Wishlist and Needlist

Topping my wishlist is a puppy. :D
But it'll never come true,
so that's why it's under my wishlist~

I also want an iPod Touch.
A few factors:
1. Mousehunt! :D (ok tofu. don't roll eyes! HAHA!)
2. I can play games! :D
3. I can go online as long as there's wi-fi~ woo hoo!
4. I hate iTunes, but it'd be nice if there's extra device that lets me listen to my songs and music :)
5. It has a built-in camera woo hoo! :D (which also means a portable mirror ;))
6. I can YouTube on it! :D
7. Gadget girl is gonna live up to her name! Huahaha! iTouch 4th Generation! I'm coming soon baby! :D

This is also under my wishlist...
because the only way I'm getting it is me saving up money to buy it :P
....and oh shut up. I'm not selling my PSP. Or my DS. Or my mp3 player. Cis.
1. My PSP is a birthday present.
2. My DS, I saved up for it.
3. My mp3 player is also a birthday present.

Too meaningful to sell =)

Latter things on my wishlist include.. a funky Polaroid camera, very very very nice slingbags/backpacks, and an iPad.

The more latter they are, the more I don't need them :P

..and now my need list.

I need a new pencilbox.
My current one.. the zip is broken ):

I need really good grades for all my subjects this semester, and for all the subjects in my coming semesters, and if I'm pursuing Masters or another degree, good grades for all the upcoming subjects!

..and finally, I need to study.

Baa baii :)

Tangled

That's how December kicked in.
By us watching Rapunzel.

Pascal makes me happy.

Rapunzel's frying pan makes me happy too.

So I hope this movie'll make you happy :)

Happy December! :D

Random.

This is bad.

I want to blog D:

1. I forgot what I wanted to blog about D:

2. Singing, listening, deleting.

3. I love Eason Chan's songs. I think his songs are the only ones I can sing, and bear to listen back to my voice after I have sung.

4. OH MY GOD WHAT THE CRAP SO NOT SUPPOSED TO DO THAT NOW.

5. Procrastination is bad bad bad bad bad bad bad.

6. No, it's not working.

7. Ok, let me tell you about my life.

8. Oh wait, I don't have one.

9. Oh, have you ever realized that Harlem's 情非得以; the one line in it: 愛上你是我情非得已, the meaning is alike with Michael Jacksons's This Is It: falling in love wasn't my plan. Haha. Isn't it amazing?

10. I should go to sleep if I'm not working.

11. Yup, and I should delete everything.

Reflect.

Can I reflect on something I want to reflect on?

Nope.

A voice speaks:

"So you just have to like it,"

Yeah... ok.
Or I just have to bullshit more.

Hmm.
I think the emotionlessness is kicking in again.

What's the word?
Lethargic.

The song I'm listening to now is...
All The Right Moves.

I particularly like this line:

Do you think I'm special,

do you think I'm nice..

am I bright enough to shine in your spaces?

There's something about those lines...
and maybe it's the way he sung it too.
I just like it.

Maybe I'm sleepy.

While I am edit..
lol, edit.

While I'm AT IT,

thank you for all my kind friends out there; namely Yi, Mel, Karie, Jen, Meng, Maple, Sook Huey, Charmaine, Weng Khye, Sharon, Ee Fei, Si Yan, Yeong, Jie Xin, Chew Wei, Wilson, Wilson's friends, some girl I contacted wrongly, strangers I don't know, Alvin Tay whose signup I didn't know of until you arrived, my friend's friends, my groupmate's friends.. yeah.... I hope I didn't miss anyone out - if I did it's because I'm feeling like a pile of bleh. But...

You all have my deep gratitude. Thank you so much!

1, 2, 3, 4, ....

It's been a while since I've talked randomly.

1. It's probably nice to just say/type whatever you want without having to think too much.

2. Yeah, it's nice, otherwise I wouldn't be doing it.

3. It's been almost three years. I saw a lot of things, and the only thing I hope is that, no matter what happens, the relationships, if it could, either just stay the same, or be better. Please don't deteriorate, please don't.

4. I bought Maroon 5's Hands All Over album, and I don't care if you call me gay.... the girl on the album cover has one superbly SEXY pose, and I'm lovin' it.

5. If Dominos offer 24-hour delivery service, I will get fat. Very very very fat.

6. Btw, I love this song:

What am I supposed to do with these clothes?

It's my twisted way

of keeping you close.

..and in a way it's true.
I want to run away.

7. I hope tomorrow will end beautifully. Please let me get all my data by tomorrow. Please let me get tomorrow in place. Please make sure I start my positional paper tomorrow. Please make sure I can get a date set from my cousin tomorrow.

..and who, you ask, I'm pleading to?
Me, myself, and I.

..and you might as well know that I plead to myself alot too.
Most of the time, it doesn't work. Maybe because each time I say I want to, I'm trying to let go, I just in turn, held on stronger.

So I'm hoping that since there's no way I can let go, I'll just turn the holding on into something good =)

Stress

Today my brother asked me when my holidays begin.
..because apparently I'm happier when I'm not stressed up with assignment.

Research should be done on the correlation between college assignments and well-being :P

unforgettable

What is?

To me my memories started to have a good recorder only when I was 15.

15 was when I was aloof, callous.
15 was when I know I found a clique.
15 was when I have a clique protecting me.

They brought change. I felt happier.

16 was when I had to enter a new clique.
Otherwise, for almost the whole of 16, I've been sleeping.

Slept till 17.
17 I got comfortable with my new clique.
17 I was so excited, I wouldn't let go of the Genting trip.

I changed a little when I was 17.

18 I had to enter a new clique again.
Even so, it was exciting.
Getting to meet up with my primary school friends.
Actually, just one I was excited to meet :P
End of 18, I got so comfortable with my new clique.. and it had already ended.
18 told me I need to adapt faster (although I didn't improve).
Many things happened when I was 18 though.
Some things I wished I had grabbed the chances, because some chances don't come back.
Learnt things in 18.
Learnt to be understanding.
Learnt to be a listener.
Learnt how to play pool (:
Learnt how to be tolerant and patient.

Not just change, I think improvements existed in 18.

19.. a new clique yet again. I remember thinking I hate this.
19 I realized I was dependent.
19 I realized it's true. You'd want to follow your friends.
19 I didn't realize I had to grow up.
19 I regretted a lot of things.
But one thing good about 19.
19 I met, I would say.. an awesome bunch of friends.

..and together we stepped into 20.
20 a new friend entered the clique.
20 was pretty much like 19.
20, but regrets from 19 carried over.
20, slowly realize I have to be independent, because my clique isn't going to be there because I have ignorantly, and stupidly slowed down my own pace.
20, I have to be responsible for my regrets.
20, both happy and unhappy.

Most importantly, 20, I think I really grew up.
If it's only a thought, I know I have to grow up.
Didn't exactly did much about knowing I have to grow up,
but here I am, 21.

First day I'm 21, it was unforgettable.
21, and trying to grow up.
21, hoping that I will grow up.
21, still having regrets from 19.
21.. having no idea whether there'll be 22, 23, 24 and so on.

But 21, trying to live everyday productively.
21, trying my best to not make anyone sad.
21, still making people sad.
21, still lazy.
21, still loves Andy Lau.
21, still plays Pokemon.
21, still trying my best, to do my best.
21, still sensitive.
21, still immature.
21, still MouseHunting.
21, still worrying people.
21, still appreciating the happy moments, however minor.
21, ..a lot of things I have to improve on..
including..

21, still loving you.

True

1. We're talking again. Haha, nice.

2. If you haven't noticed already, my post titles these days are mostly song titles (:

3. I need to learn to be selfless.

4. Need to learn to remember to take my morning pills in the morning, and night pills.. not after midnight.

5. I want to go to Universal Studios Singapore... because I want a minion!!!

6. ....my friend just told me they don't have Despicable Me =.=

7. So I don't wanna go there anymore.

8. Just bathed! =D

9. I am trying hard! ..and today I had ... probably a small reinforcement. It was a microexpression. That microexpression meant.. delight =)

10. Thank you.