Pawn

I want to walk out of the territories you control
but I stepped into the war you planned
I have no tight defenses
and I have nowhere to run
I want to escape from the traps you set
but I dropped into another problem
I don't have the strength to grasp victory
and I have no luck to flee
I'm just like a pawn
every move I make is under your control
I'm not the only one in your eyes
but just a pawn
I'm just like a pawn
every move I make is out of my control
there is never hesitation in your decisions
and yet still I am
under your control

tonight I scribbled on my laptop with Bing's pen.

and then realized it's permanent ink.

so i scribbled more.

it's irreversible.

just like time,

and the things said.

it's both good and bad.

but before it's known, it's always scary.

the truth hurts.

and hello.

you have things to lose.

and after that you either feel a whole lot better,

or a whole lot worst.

I don't know.

I don't know anymore.

I am.

so scared.